I know my blogging is lacking. Anybody who has stuck with me long enough knows that I tend to ebb and flow on here. Last week, I thought to myself that I might do NaBloPoMo for November. Then today rolled around, and I realized that November first was, um, yesterday, so I've already blown that.
I've just not had much to say lately, nothing profound, and nothing witty. My days lately have been filled with me feeling overwhelmed, not getting as much done as I should be, and then beating myself up about that. It's not exactly the kind of thing people want to read about every day.
I don't know how many people are even still reading this blog. I used to have a steady stream of commenters, especially back in the days where I was able to pump out some fairly amusing posts. I used to be full of funny stories. Now I'm not. I can try to say nothing is happening in our lives that's funny, that life has just changed. The reality is probably that our life hasn't changed that much. I have. The funny is stuff is probably still all there, but I'm just not seeing it any more.
I've become a lot more serious and cynical person that I'm used to. It makes me uncomfortable in my own skin. I want to get back to being who I used to be, but at this point I don't know if it's possible. I don't know if I'll be able to find my way back there. It scares me, but what if this *is* who I am now?
One small fragment of the old self is left, which is the one that doesn't like to leave serious posts just hanging there with no rainbows or unicorns or puppies bounding through a field. In the spirit of that, I will leave you with a link to our Halloween pictures, for those that have not seen them.