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Monday, November 02, 2009

Still around here somewhere

I know my blogging is lacking. Anybody who has stuck with me long enough knows that I tend to ebb and flow on here. Last week, I thought to myself that I might do NaBloPoMo for November. Then today rolled around, and I realized that November first was, um, yesterday, so I've already blown that.

I've just not had much to say lately, nothing profound, and nothing witty. My days lately have been filled with me feeling overwhelmed, not getting as much done as I should be, and then beating myself up about that. It's not exactly the kind of thing people want to read about every day.

I don't know how many people are even still reading this blog. I used to have a steady stream of commenters, especially back in the days where I was able to pump out some fairly amusing posts. I used to be full of funny stories. Now I'm not. I can try to say nothing is happening in our lives that's funny, that life has just changed. The reality is probably that our life hasn't changed that much. I have. The funny is stuff is probably still all there, but I'm just not seeing it any more.

I've become a lot more serious and cynical person that I'm used to. It makes me uncomfortable in my own skin. I want to get back to being who I used to be, but at this point I don't know if it's possible. I don't know if I'll be able to find my way back there. It scares me, but what if this *is* who I am now?

One small fragment of the old self is left, which is the one that doesn't like to leave serious posts just hanging there with no rainbows or unicorns or puppies bounding through a field. In the spirit of that, I will leave you with a link to our Halloween pictures, for those that have not seen them.



Jim said...

I still read here. :o)

You need to read the book "The Now Habit." Good stuff.

The Mrs. said...

Reading every time you post! You want to know something? You feeling overwhelmed & not getting things done is EXACTLY the kind of thing I want to read about. It makes me feel better, knowing I'm not the only one feeling that exact same way.

Love the Halloween pictures - the kids are growing up WAY too fast!

Tara. said...

I've been wondering where you are and how everything is going. Sent ya an email yesterday even. Hang in there!

Meghann said...

Thanks peeps.

StephLove said...

We had a fairy and a pirate (well a pirate ship) around here at Halloween, too.

I just wandered over here from WCS, so I can't speak to how you've changed, but I hope things look up for you soon.

Michelle said...

I'm still here too... been overwhelmed too and not posting on my own blog! I'm trying to get better about that though and am trying to get in the swing of things!