We've had a tragedy here in our neighborhood. I have never had anything like this happen so close to me.
We live on the base here. Yesterday around dinner time I had noticed that multiple cop cars had raced by, kind of wondered what was going on, but forgot about it as I got dinner on the table. I went to go check the mail and saw that the cops were at a house very close to mine. Noted it with interest and then went back inside. Later I was outside playing with the dog. It is my nightly routine to give my dog a little rawhide chip every night, and I always walk to my fence and toss one over for the dog that lives behind us. (We have chain link fencing) On my way back into the house I noticed the cops were still in the house, and even stranger, there was police tape all around the back yard. And for some reason I noticed an upstairs window was all the way open. It struck me as odd, but all the pieces didn't fall into place in my mind.
After I had gotten the children into bed, I was surfing online and there was a knock at the door. It was a police officer. He asked me if he could ask me a few questions. I came outside so we wouldn't wake my kids. He asked me if I had heard anything around 5 that evening, like a child screaming. My heart sank and I said no. He pushed me about it for a while, seeming desperate that I would know *something. But, I honestly didn't. I told him around that time I didn't hear anything out of the ordinary until the cop cars. I then asked him what happened. He wasn't able to tell me anything really except that a child had died. I went numb.
Talking to different neighbors, including a few that went to a vigil tonight at that house, a 1 year old little boy fell out of an upstairs window. The rumor mill is working hard, and I've heard lots of different theories, but no one really knows what happened. I will say that the incident is under really heavy investigation. I found a snippet in the local paper saying that the body was being sent for autopsy even.
My heart really hurts though, especially as a mother. The house it happened at is SO close to ours. About 100 feet away. How could something like this happen? How could a child die so close to me and I didn't even know? I know that there was probably nothing I could have done. Rationally, I know that. But the mama bear in me? Is feeling heavy guilt. What if I had been outside? What if I had been able to do something? How could this happen?